so i've nearly completed my sugar free day. it is currently almost 10pm and i have not had any refined sugar today.
i wish i could say it was easy, or no big deal.
but it wasn't.
it was hard.
i felt deprived. my mouth physically craved something sweet.
i was (and am) annoyed at the fact that i felt this way. to feel so mastered by something that it consumed my thoughts and made me cranky and short tempered with my kiddos is disturbing to me.
i didn't follow my "menu plan" as i intended. i ate a banana in there, i tried a cup of coffee with just cream (blech) but at least it staved off any caffeine headaches, i discovered that my frozen sprouted bread has no sugar at all (YAY!) so i had the sad little end pieces that have been there for months, i had buttered whole wheat noodles and peas with my grilled salmon, and instead of carrots with ranch (even my "healthy homemade recipe" for this has sugar in it. gah) i had tortilla chips with pico de gallo and sour cream.
the saddest thing after eating ALL that nourishing and good for me food, mentally i was not satisfied. lame, i say. very lame.
i'm not sure what my next step is. i wish i could say that i will continue this tomorrow. but i don't really want to. at least not tomorrow. i want to have birthday cake with miss j tomorrow.
well, good night and SWEET dreams ;)